Am I bad or wrong or sad or stupid?
Because even though 99% of me has basically given up on anything beyond friendship and sex developing between X and I, I still hold out a tiny bit of hope? A tiny little 1% that things will change, that maybe he’ll wake up one day and see me in a new light, or stuff will happen and things will go my way for the first fucking time in my life.
But that stupid. And naive. And I know it. That’s why it’s only 1%. That’s why it’s an impossibility that I don’t dare think about with any modicum of seriousness. That’s why it kills me a little bit inside.
I dont’ think you’re bad or sad or stupid. Just wrong.
No of course you’re not bad or wrong or sad or stupid. You’re just normal. I don’t know how you keep on going this way, it would definitely be killing me.
Maybe you should tell him how you feel?
Much love
xxxxx