It might be about time to introduce The Girlfriend

11 07 2009

I really never thought I would get to this point.

X had just stopped in my hometown with the Girlfriend for dinner after doing some sort of weekendy thing together out near where I live. The dinner was Nice. Yes. Nice with a capital ‘N’. We got Italian food. And X and I settled pretty well into our usual routine of back and forth banter and making fun of each other. I felt a bit bad because we left The Girlfriend out of the conversation a bit. And I feel like a bad ‘hostess’ (yes. hostess. they were in my hometown. i felt responsible to make sure they enjoyed it. :P ) because I sorta knew we were leaving her out and I didn’t much care. I missed X too much and I was enjoying our back and forth conversation far too much.

X left to go to the restroom at some point and The Girlfriend and I exchanged casual conversation. And I admit. It was Awkward. Also with a capital ‘A’. I suppose I should explain why things were awkward.

For those of you late to the game or who don’t bother to read older posts: X and I have been having very regular, very amazing sex for over a year and a half now. I am his Mistress. (With a capital ‘M’) We had the conversation. She is The Girlfriend. I am The Mistress. It speaks either to my desperation or my apathy that I’m perfectly okay with this title. The Girlfriend only thinks X and I are friends. Friends who are uncommonly close, who’ve kissed a few times, and who had sex once. The episode last summer explains that bit. She hated me for a while. Not surprised. And I hated her for a long while. Almost as long as I’ve known X. But this past semester at school X asked me to give her a chance. He told me I was hating her unfairly. I still think she’s treated X shitty. And I still do not like some of the places she’s put him in. (maybe I’ll write a post about it someday) But just chalk it up to me being protective of my friends.

So basically. We’ve now met twice. We’re on semi-friendly, “Tell her I say hi!” terms. And I don’t hate her. My feeling about her are a bit mixed. But bottomline: she doesn’t know about X and I.

And this is where things get semi-fucked up. After they left I was texting with X. Out of the blue he tells me ‘The Girlfriend wants to know if you were wearing rings in your nipple piercings. she was checking out your boobs.’ Needless to say, I was A BIT taken aback. I mean. I did not expect that one. The conversation then progresses to guessing bra sizes. She got mine right the first time. I was totally off on hers. 34C for me and 32D for her. Though apparently mine are bigger according to X.

We started talking a bit about sextoys. And she asked if I had a strap-on. I said no. But I was hoping to get one to review (she knows I review sex toys. but she doesn’t know about my blog, really) and she mentioned that if she got to know me better she might be interested in testing it out with me.

X of course is overjoyed. It’s been a bit of a fantasy of his to watch his mistress fuck his girlfriend. So as of right now, when I go and visit X next week, some threesome-ish things might happen. And if they don’t. I’m pretty sure they’ll happen once school starts back up.

As fucked up as it is, I’m looking forward to it. The Girlfriend is cute. She’s not drop dead gorgeous or super sexy or anything. I think she’s about on the same level of attractiveness as me. Which isn’t bad at all. But I’m not gonna lie and pretend she looks like a supermodel. I sure as hell don’t. Haha. She looks like she has a really nice body though, nicer than mine. Which will make me a bit self-conscious about hooking up with her.

The whole thing is kind of a mind fuck for me. And in a very deliscious way. She’s the girlfriend. But if we had a threesome, I’d be the one with the power. Between the two of us, I know more simply by default. I don’t know. It’s just appealing to me. Plus, I love doing things that make X happy. And this is one of those things. I feel supremely dirty for being okay with it. I feel like my moral receptors have overloaded and died so I no longer feel a twinge when I do bad things like this. Part of my thinks that might be good though. Who knows. Maybe The Girlfriend will even get her own letter some day.

I fully expect to get reamed by some people for being okay with this. I expect people to warn me about the dangers of doing this. I know people will think I’m fucked up. Go ahead and comment. Let me know how you feel. But it’s not going to change how I feel about this or if I’m going to do it or not. Judge me all you want.


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12 07 2009
Jonathan

So are you more excited about fucking The Girlfriend, or about the prospect of X joining in on the fun? One can’t deny the dynamics are a little odd, but you are indulging in something most people would want to do but be too afraid to try. Good for you!

Do you think you’ll feel more at ease with being The Mistress if you fuck The Girlfriend? Or if the 3 of you have a romp in the sack?

What is the thing that is exciting you the most about this possible situation?

Looking forward to reading about the outcome!

12 07 2009
Ian

I say go for it. Sure there are downsides but you already know that those are. The upside is that you might go from a mistress to a secondary in a poly relationship where everything is above board, no more hiding, no more sneaking, less drama.

13 07 2009
X

Well, I know that I’m looking forward to it, and while I’m not too sure about the poly thing, I know that this will make me alot more comfortable being around both the girlfriend and Z, so, overall, I think this will be good for all of us :-)

14 07 2009
TC

It’s fucked up, you know it’s fucked up, but who the hell are we to judge! Get your rocks on girl. Be aware that potentially this is gonna fuck you up and could even fuck up your relationship with X.

But I’m a firm believer of better to have lived and regret it than have regretted not to live.

14 07 2009
Wilhelmina

wow. i’m kind of jealous of you. yes, it is a mindfuck, and the experience may end up hurting you if it doesn’t end up how you expect or it puts a strain on your friendship with X. do you think you’ve definitely gotten over your hatred for her enough to be okay with it? there’s also the issue of her not knowing how involved you and X are… i wonder if you’ll say anything to her about it if you end up doing anything with her.

the bottom line is – i think it would be an immensely cool experience.

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