20 08 2008

X and I apparently have a problem. And that problem is keeping our hands off each other.

Now, I haven’t seen him yet,  but all we can seem to talk about online is sex. Not that I’m complaining in the least. I get to see him tomorrow evening, and the first thing I’m going to do when I see him is slap him as hard as I can across the face. He deserves it for what he put me through this summer. After that I’ll probably drag him up to my apartment and we’ll fuck for hours.

X has also brought up a few new fantasties that I’m alternately excited and worried about. For one, he told me about one of his fantasies that I would ‘probably find weird.’ I giggled and told him that it was me, I doubt I’d find it odd. Turns out the dear boy has a rape fantasy. He made it very clear that he didn’t actually want to rape anyone, he just wanted to pretend to take someone (read: me) ‘against their will.’ I told him the thought of that really turns me on. I think he was surprised.

Now, the other thing that came up is the one I’m a bit worried about. We were talking about if we had good handcuffs or not, and he asked if I’d rather be tied up or tie him up. I told him both. He asked me what I’d do if I tied him up and I told him I’d probably tease him and use him like a toy. Then, I asked what he wanted me to do while he was tied up. He didn’t know. But he told me I’d be ‘an imaginative little mistress.’ And everything clicked in my head. ‘And you’d be a good slave, wouldn’t you?’ ‘Yes Mistress.’

So X wants me to dominate him. And I’m all for that, I’m just worried. When it comes to us, I’m more naturally submissive than him. And I really do mean that. He’s always been the dominant one who throws me down on the bed, pins my hands above my head and makes me beg. He’s the one that’s holds me face down on the bed while he fucks me hard, bites my neck and tells me I’m his little cockslut, I belong to him, I’m his toy to play with.

I guess my biggest worry is that I won’t know what to do. I mean. I dunno. I’m going to order him to make me cum with just his tongue and fingers. I’ll probably tie his hands and sit on his face, making him eat me out again. If he’s ‘good’ I might go down on him or fuck him until he’s close to the edge, then stop. Basically I’m just going to go with the ‘You have to earn the right to cum.’ And I know it sounds like I have things planned out, but I’m worried I’m going to fuck up. Honestly, I haven’t been this worried about something related to sex ever. It’s probably just because I’m stepping out of the role I naturally end up playing.

But X promised me shower sex as a reward after I dominate him. So I am excited for that. Perhaps I could incorporate that into the Mistress/slave thing. Make him wash my hair or something. That could be amusing.

I don’t know. Still worried about this. Advice anyone? I could use it.

t-shirt time

23 07 2008



I love the feel of wet cloth against my skin.

I couldn’t help myself and I decided to post one of the ’school spirit’ photos before hockey season starts. It’s just too fun to hold back on.

Thank X for the lovely t-shirt. He gave it to me the night of our first big fight way back in November. Only someone of his height could get a t-shirt that’s big enough to hang down to the thighs of a girl who’s 5′10. I always felt tiny next to him. He would have loved this photo. Maybe I’ll show it to him just for fun sometime……

Happy Half-Nekkid Thursday everyone!